Emotions

Emotions: They are invisible, and not concrete. Yet, you can see them all over people. Tears signify sadness, while a smile shows you're happy. Your body language tells it all. They're hard to hide, and even harder to explain.
Over the last two years I think I've felt every emotion possible. I've seen both ends of the spectrum. I have been immensely happy and intensely sad. The fear that sets in when you're told that you have a disease that is about to change your entire life as you know it is unexplainable. Yet, at times when I shouldn't have been able to breathe or think, I have had a strange sense of peace and clarity. I have been sad, and sick, and scared. But, these things seem so small when I consider the joy and love and hapiness I've felt. The complexity of these emotions have allowed me to grow and mature, and have taught me that life is full of ups and downs. It only matters which ones you focus on. Life really is what you make it. I have seen six year olds hooked up to IV's that smile and laugh and play. Only to come home and read statuses complaining about going to work or the big math test on Friday.
I feel incredibly lucky to know the things I know at this age. I have been shown the true meaning of life and have been given the opportunity to be an example for others. It is so comforting to know that no matter how many times the earth shakes beneath us, the end has already be written. It is my prayer that from one end of trhe spectrum to the next, I never forget my purpose and never take my eyes off the cross.

Where Does The Time Go?

Wow! My first blog post! I created this page about three months ago, after my friend Sarah showed me hers. Writing has always been a hobby of mine, never judgemental and always theraputic. What can't you say to a piece of paper (or in this case, my computer screen)?? I don't care if 1,000 people read this, or just 1. It is my prayer that through this page I can be a positive example of God's unfailing love for us. So, here it goes. My first post :)
Here's some things about me...
1. I have the most amazing sister in the whole entire world. She is incredible, so much better than I can ever hope to be. I love you Kayla
2. I have a serious obsession w/ peanutbutter.
3. I am one of those weird kids that actually likes school
4. I have no idea what I want to be or study when I graduate.
5. I am indecisive (see 4) ha!
6. I have a best friend that understands my every emotion, that I never have to explain anything to. She is a cancer survivor, just like me, and such a blessing in my life. God definitely put her in my life for a reason. Love you Sarah
7. There is music playing in my room 24/7.
8. I am pretty much nocturnal- I have trouble sleeping, so don't be surprised if most of these blogs aren't written between the hours of 11 pm and 6 am. I'm at my happiest when it's dark and there are stars out :)
9. Math is my arch nemisis. I am not a black and white person, so math and I don't get along.
10. My goal is to every day be an example of God's love and light. Whether I am at church, or school, or the grocery store, I pray that people see His purpose in my life.
I am so excited to start journaling regularly. But, it's 3:30 in the morning. So I'm gonna wrap it up for now. Thanks for reading!

Sarah <3